I believe in the American Dream.

Having struggled through abject poverty, I can appreciate the immigrant battle more than most. I have faced family problems, school problems, mental problems all to succeed at an extremely high level because my country doesn’t discriminate on basis of disability or personal wealth. I think it requires a certain class struggle to fully appreciate the American dream.

I start a career on Monday, the full realization of a college education. I came from nothing to pay my own way through college and hopefully continue on to law school. I hold the American Dream, an idea of personal betterment not just economic wealth close to my heart.

I’m not saying you were spoiled or had an easy life or anything. Hell, I don’t know you. I’m just saying, that’s my general experience. Of course, it doesn’t always work out that way. I have a cousin who grew up with me, kinda like a sister who has 2 felonies and struggles to get by. Some people just decide to take different paths I guess.

I’ve asked myself similar questions in the past. I used to worry about not over achieving or seeing every gd site in the world or whatever. Now, I just go with the flow. I too believe that you can be juuust about any damn thing you want to be. It’s all a matter of how much work you want to put into it. Now that Obama has been elected, that really puts the hammer on excuses.

I find that the less spoiled you are as a kid and more hard times you go through early in life, the more likely you are to appreciate the simple things. I’m assuming that’s why I’m content. We have a nice house, make a decent living, but not rich by no means. Neither me nor my fiancee need big fancy things. We just hope to travel and spend our lives with our kids. I find my happiness in volunteering when I can and spending time with them. Life is what you make it. You can spend it being a miserable biotch or you can just be happy you get to experience what life has to offer. Trust me. Being happy is the better route.

I did notice that these depressing posts have netted more comments, and while I generally try to keep my personal life out of the public eye, I might be onto something here.

Happy people have this mystical ability to accept whatever life throws at them. Non-acceptance, always wanting something else, thus never having what you want, is depressing.

Knowing that “you have it pretty good (compared to some other people)” is small comfort. After all, you’re not some starving African kid with AIDS, so you should stop bitching right?

Notice that these recent depressing emo posts of yours have netted way more comments and activity than anything before. It’s not like any of this is groundbreaking insightfullness. So what is it that makes these done-to-death “life sucks” posts so interesting?

I’m just unhappy with my mundane life. I don’t seek meaning or purpose. I just want to be much less bored and have a more fulfilling life in general.

I offered the example of God or World of Warcraft. Well obviously the meaning I’ve found is neither of those, but they very easily could be someone else’s meaning. My specific meaning is self improvement; I want to grow and mature into what I consider a better person. I want this world to be better off for having had me in it. So in the aggregate, I and people like me will have achieved something.

If you’re looking for a universal meaning you’re not gonna find it. ‘Meaning’ is a human construct while humans are a natural construct and the same rules don’t apply to either.

Life isn’t always what you make it, meaning that, life cannot be what you necessarily want it to be, due to the systems and societal constraints we live inside.

Making the best of something isn’t the answer to everything.

If you are so sure there is meaning, then by all means, let me know what you believe it is.

So far as I can tell, outside of reproduction, there is no meaning. Our lives have no reason to last as long as they do, especially when you aren’t enjoying it.

Human emotion and intelligence is the reason we seek meaning, and purpose. Problem is, there really is no purpose, we just always chase the dream of there actually being one.

I will reiterate that I think existential discussions are pretty much a waste of time. There is meaning to this life, whether its god or World of Warcraft.

Suicide is a perfectly viable option for those who have complete freedom, which means no family, friends or people who depend upon you.